Tomorrow is a big day!

I'm so dying to spill the beans as to whether our little one is a he or a she! I want to not be afraid that i'm going to say he or she on accident and have the whole thing be blown. although when we were at mindy's office the other day just out of pure weirdness i said both on two occasions so i saved my own bum for slipping up even though no one really noticed.
It really is so fun to have given them a name though. To say a name and not be well if it's a blank than the name is blank, we can actually call this little person by their name!
The thing i hate about waiting to tell people, is even though no one actually means to some people have made me feel like it's a horrible thing to do. they look at me like i'm stupid when i say yes i know but i'm not telling until i can tell my parents first. dumb. i totally should be allowed to decide what i want to and not get any flack for it, but ha, once you get pregnant people don't give a crap what's their business or not and just open that filter that is supposed to be between brain and mouth. really most of the time i don't mind it too much. i think it's just that i'm dying to tell and i'm getting crap for doing something that's super hard for me. i don't know. either way.
I figured out something weird today. i'm sure it's totally normal but i've never heard anyone say anything about it but sometimes when baby pushes up against my stomach for whatever reason i can feel little bits of them and actually if it's in a place that's super uncomfortable if i gently push down i can move him/her down so it hurts less :) it's quite weird and nice at the same time.
So tomorrow a TON of family will be at my house and i can't even believe it! we have i think 13 people total cramming in our little apartment it's going to be an adventure for sure...... either way i'm excited and worn out completely from cleaning all day long. blegh
and i'm really starving but we don't have any snacks since i've eaten them all by the time it's the day before grocery shopping and i don't feel like eating a huge meal... mmmm.
i'm being a bit of a whiner aren't i? I didn't even realize i felt this way or this negative until i started writing! i thought i was in a good mood ha ha ha ha. oh well. it's bed time.
night!