I was thinking the other day about babies. people around me are getting prego and it makes me doubt what I know is true at moments; that no way can I do the whole second baby thing yet I'm so loving my lover boy all on his own. I've been thinking lots about next time and how I seriously am going to hire a doula (basically a cheerleader and birth coach that just focuses on helping you focus while the doc/midwife does the delivering) and do it without pain meds. It's going to be hard but honestly I know I can do it. I feel like I take the easy way out a lot of times in life and I want to be able to say I did at least 1 really hard accomplishment thing.
anyways.
I feel like I have a pretty good intuition about things in my life.
Like seriously, when I lose something, if I sit and genuinely think about it I'll know whether I'll find them again or not. It's this awesome calm feeling.
and when i was prego and pre gender with my porter baby
I had names picked out for both boy and girl. the girl name was like .... eh. ok we have it. but I KNEW that my boy name just wasn't HIS name. I fretted and made lists and visited dozens of web sites of names trying to find THE name. when drew said "porter" I knew that instant. it was like this warm fuzzy calm filled every inch of my fingertips down to my toes. I knew.
Just like I KNOW that another name I have is supposed to be our next baby's name. when we get around to that whole procreation thing again.
see though I was thinking the other day. about the end result of my family. I want 5 kids you see.
drew wants 3. I always said I'd get him to have 4 and then he'll know that the fifth was supposed to come.
but seriously as I was pondering I just knew something. (just watch I'll be crazy wrong)
I am going to have 3 boys and then the last one MIGHT be a girl. and I'm pretty sure it will be.
but I won't have five. Four is the magic number.
but I know the next boys name. I know it.
the only problem is that drew doesn't like it.
yet.
I'll remedy that situation though haha
because I know.
When you get around to that 2nd baby I have the number to the most amazing doula in the world! Can't wait to see if your predictions on the future are correct! :)
ReplyDeletei think this is the problem of all married couples! chad wants 2 kids and i want 3. we are both pretty set in our ways! I just keep telling myself that once we've had two he'll see the error of his ways and want another. we'll see though!
ReplyDeleteI too, know some good doulas. Do waht you feel is right, when you feel its right. I've heard a lot of moms say they had their second too soon, and others say the LOVE LOVE LOVED having a good distance between their kids. My mom told me if she could do ONE thing different, it would be to space us out a little more so we each got the attention we deserved. Other moms though, are rockstars, and can totally pull off having a few little ones close together. Like I said, do what you FEEL, which obviously you are already doing.
ReplyDeletefive is my magic number i believe! I never "knew" i was having a boy and never "knew" what his name was supposed to be. But I totally want 4 boys and one girl. Adorbs.
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