thankful for.. 4,5,6,7,8,9

pah.
told you it'd be in chunks!
4- I was super grateful for friends! I had an awesome friend come pick me and porter up, take me to her house, feed me amazing food, and make thanksgiving wreaths with me and her wonderful husband played with porter and actually taught him a little bit how to go up and down stairs! (normally he tries to just walk off them because he has no clue since we have one step in our house.. one)

5- I was grateful for my normally awesome health because I rapidly came down with this horrid head cold which I hadn't had for AGES

6- I was grateful for Family because drew's mom had us over for dinner and cut my hair again so it's back up at my chin (which I'm also grateful for) also this picture doesn't do my hair.. or my face justice. I swear my face is thinner than that.......

7- I was SUPER grateful that I haven't lost myself. I like to think that I've always been kind of a cool person. That I am friendly, outgoing, and a little funny. I feel like a mom and a wife most days and unfortunately most of those days lately I've felt like I've just disappeared. Monday Drew was in charge of a charity activity for the SEED program at utah state. They took an activity that already existed -country swing dancing- and sold raffle tickets for all these amazing prizes that companies all over have donated including over 30 gift cards, a banana chair, and a 46 inch tv. I helped them out, jumped right in and sold tickets, put in some info on drawing order and had an awesome time. Drew afterwards told me that 6 out of 7 of the people in his group actually came up to him and said "your wife is awesome". They said I'm cool, nice, helpful.. awesome. I can't describe how amazing that felt. to know that not only did they like me, but they took the time to tell drew what they thought! I realized that I had been my normal self and I am still in there. I'm being my normal self a lot and I just don't know it and since I only see people my age every once in a while, I think I lost it, BUT I DIDN'T!

8- yesterday I was so grateful for cuddles. First before drew went off to work extra shifts again, we got like 3 hours straight of pure cuddly goodness. I seriously just soaked it up. Then last night when port woke up from his nap I was watching a tv show and I wanted to finish it. so. I put cereal in one of his bucket toys, sat him on my lap with his silkie (his special blanket) with the bucket on his lap and he snuggled up and watched it with me while munching on his snacks. That was awesome too! I just smelled his hair and rubbed his arm and scalp. mmm. he's delicious.

9- Today I'm going to be grateful for my wonderful husband taking so many (SO MANY) extra shifts. He works so hard and most of the time I complain that I never get to see him. today I'm thanking him for doing what he has to. In a year we hope to be in a completely different place in our lives with him graduated from school and working a normal full time job making.. at least slightly more than he does now. We hope to be saving for a house and getting our last debt payed off. A little bit hopes we'll be in such a good place I can start trying to have another baby..... but I've accepted that we're in such a teetering place right now I need to wait until we're stable (at least I've accepted it for today).