Question:If tomorrow was going to be the end of your life, what would you do? Who would you treat differently today? What would you say to those closest to? Would you be scared for the afterlife? I think we should all live today as if it were our last. Tell him or her that you love them. Call your friend and thank them for what they have done for you. Say sorry. Forgive those who offend you. Pray.
I thought for a minute and realized I would live today like I do every day. I have the wonderful opportunity of having my full time job be A mom and a wife for my boys! I get to be home and make sure the home is clean in order to welcome the spirit into our home and to make sure that my wonderful hardworking husband doesn't have to stress about one more responsibility on top of the 2 jobs and full time school he already has on his plate. I get to sit with my sweet son who is learning words at the speed of light and teach him right from wrong, teach him empathy, compassion, and how much I love him.
I have worked hard through my blog, social network sites, and in person to show those around me how I really feel and how much I care about every person individually. (Remember this post?)
I feel like I'm in one of the happiest, best place I've been in throughout my whole life. Even my hurt feelings are just feelings, I feel no animosity toward anyone... maybe at all!
You know when they ask you what you want to be when you grow up? You say things like Vet, Firefighter, cop, Astronaut, Director, Actor. I said Mom. I always thought that was a silly answer but I didn't have anything else that I wanted to be. I remember being embarrassed even because saying a mom looked like I had no drive, and the other day thinking about how many different places so many of the people I know ended up and me just being a housewife and a stay at home mom. I'm not one of my friends that are Film makers, in the nfl (or about to be drafted), an actress, a teacher, a businesswoman, a radio Jockey, oh goodness the different places up all ended up... and I had my dream when I was 21 years old. Of course the the thought only lasted about 3 minutes before I said "duh" my son can, walk, talk, and knows I love him. My husband is happy with the work I do and he is proud of the way I raise porter. I am ABSOLUTELY accomplished. I do so much work and since drew is busy doing all of the millions of things he does, everything house and home related is ALL me! I make the house clean, I do the laundry, I make the meal plans, I make the grocery list, I change diapers, I teach porter all about what I do, I teach him joy, I coach and encourage him when he's having a hard time, I make him laugh, I meet all of his needs, and all of that is what I feel is absolutely worthwhile in my eyes, and in the eyes of all those I love.
so yes. I'd pray for my family to be able to accept my fate with the comfort of knowing it was not the last time they would see me, and that they would know everything would turn out alright, I would tell those I love, that I do love them, but the after life is not something I fear. I should have read my scriptures more and prayed more, but hopefully heavenly father can forgive me for things I can't change at that point.
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