Spring Fever!

Oh my goodness have you been outside? It's gorgeous! I haven't been out that much because.. well lets face it I am a city girl living in a country world and did you know HOW many bugs and spiders I see scurrying across my lawn as I walk through it? It's pretty horrible. I mean I kill an average of 3-4 spiders in my house a day. freaks me out. blegh. but the weather? gorgeous! Porter and I have been pulling out the stroller lately and going for walks. I feel dumb because I don't usually like to just wander around I like to have somewhere to go... I don't know why, I'm just crazy that way. Drew now has 24 days left until his last day of school (not counting finals week) and we could not be happier. He's been working so hard trying to keep himself from coming apart at the seams. I'm so excited for him to take one thing off his plate not to mention the huge accomplishment it is to graduate with TWO degrees! I am married to a genius. Now the last thing is babies. I'm so insanely grateful that I have at least two friends due within a month so I can get some more newborn time in. I was watching my new obsession (I just watch seasons of shows on netflix sometimes and I have to resort to whatever they offer) 90210 and there was this ADORABLE new baby and it made my uterus hurt. I'm serious. My hand went to my stomach and everything. uuuugggg. Luckily I've had Liam (jelli's baby) to keep me happy but I'm starting to thing crazy thoughts.
Porter... oh porter has been driving me up the wall. I find myself on my knees around once an hour the way he's been behaving. It's almost as if he's regressed in the sense that he's not using words that I know he knows how to use, he's screaming instead of trying to talk, and those fits man, he throws them and when he does he's either hitting himself in the face, slamming whatever is in his hands into his legs or face or whatever, OR he straight up slaps me in the face. I just don't get it. I haven't done anything differently, he hasn't gone through any changes at all, we aren't yelling in our home hardly at all and haven't had any fights in front of him or not in front of him... I just don't get it. I was expecting the "terrible twos" but that's what I taught him sign language for, and I thought it would be a gradual change when he turned two... not a sudden change when he turned 19 months?
bleeegh. hopefully I am doing things right and it'll all turn out ok.. I don't want some bratty child who's badly behaved... I want my sweet good natured boy back :( and if he's going crazy does that mean that a sibling would be a bad idea? oh babies. I miss newborns ESPECIALLY when he stands there looking me in the eyes and smacks me across the cheek. it makes me want to cry, but then he hugs me and gives me lots of kisses and brings me his book and blanket 5 minutes later and just wants to cuddle. oh dear. nothing makes sense in the land of motherhood... just that I love him more than I'll ever find the words to tell him.