who I am.

Sometimes I forget. I get down, then I whine. I am so thankful for everyone who encouraged me. Remember that Jelli that I told you about? She came over and let me talk. Talk and talk and talk. I talked about everything and cried at a few subjects. We figured out (it's not a huge discovery it's just one that I need to be reminded of every once in a while) That I need some time to just be me. I need to have moments where I am doing things because I want to do them. Even if it's cleaning the house, do it when I want to and because I want the outcome not just because drew wants a clean house. Also I got to talk out my frustrations with how negative I've become towards porter (aka yelling when I don't like yelling) and I was able to work out my problems and re-realize that he doesn't do anything to be bad or good, he does everything for a specific reason. I've been tired since porter has been not sleeping as much again. This time it's because he won't eat a full dinner then he gets super hungry at night. That's a work in progress. I'm excited though I have the next two weeks spotted with things for me. I have a baby shower, I just went to a wedding, My brother is graduating so we're going to a dinner with my whole family, and then I'm spending my birthday weekend down in salt lake with my family! Not to mention I get a little break from teaching my primary class.. cause that's a whole level of exhausting that I don't want to complain about. 

Also I need to be working out more. it's hard with no gym membership.. we're going to see if we can turn drew's into mine so I can go. since I'm the one who wants to exercise lately. cross your fingers on that! 

Also I'll have to share all the fun deets as they happen! 

oh and I cut my hair, what do you think?

Thanks for being so awesome! I have the best friends/readers ever!