Monday, March 4, 2013
Dear Banana
I was feeling oh so woozy and hot flashy and dizzy this morning. Thank you for makin me feel really good in just a few minutes. Well... good enough to make Chicken Noodle Soup. Pass my thanks along to chicken noodle soup for making me feel all the way better. Now I can go buy some cute baby things.
love sam
ps. you can thank gwen Stefani for making that song pop in my head every single time I write/type banana.
I need help guys. I want to find CHEAP headbands. I want to have one of those girls that usually has a bow/headband on her head. Help me do it?
Tuesday, February 26, 2013
Think Pink!
oh my goodness...
holy gee whiz...
What do I do with a GIRL?!
It's terrifying! I'll have to help her find herself, help her be sweet and compassionate, help her have confidence in herself and not bring others down while not letting others bring her down. I have to help her through boys and then marriage and then having babies of her own. It's overwhelming. Just like I felt when I thought about having porter. It's hard because I am one of the most carefree people, unless you tell me I am responsible for these children growing up into good people. People that others will look up to.
I am however also excited for so much. Dresses and hair and cute girly things are just the beginning :)
She (I still can't believe I'm saying that) will be amazing and sweet and beautiful just like her brother.
Someone wake me up because I feel like I'm dreaming. How did I get so blessed?
Monday, February 11, 2013
bop on the hand
I've been so wonderful through this pregnancy! I'm just so happy to be blessed in such a sweet sweet way! The opportunity to be trusted with teaching another sweet spirit. It's amazing. The rulers of pregnancy are very fair though... even though I got nausea for one week and haven't yaked once, I've been getting hit with most everything else. Headaches that last for days, a super sniffer, shortness of breath, heartburn, and many many other things. The thing is, I look at this pregnancy as such a gift, such a monumentus blessing, that my outlook on things has been so different then when I was pregnant with porter. I do my best and don't complain. I tell drew when I'm having issues that are a little too painful for me to keep inside, but it's more of a matter of fact "this is what's happening" thing. I'm quite proud of myself!
Porter had surgery and has been such a trooper when it comes to keeping his gauze cast on and such. He's so cute! We went to the doctor last week and they took it off and he flipped out seeing the stitches in his thumb :( we'd be able to survive with him wearing only a band aid over it now, but we had to wrap it all back up so he wouldn't fiddle with it when I wasn't looking. We SHOULD be able to take the stitches out and keep the cast off tomorrow! I'm so excited! I should go find you some pictures of the gnarly hand he has. BAM. AND HIS THUMB IS STRAIGHT!!!!!!
He's also been so good at his vocabulary! If I tell him to use his words, he actually has very clear realistic ways to communicate to me. (now we have to work on his acceptance of the word "no" lol, but that'll hopefully come with time.)
Well lately about the baby I have hit the weird middle stage, when I'm starting to show, but I don't know what it is and I don't have a name for it, and I haven't felt any movement so I just feel like I'm getting bigger but I dont' feel pregnant. It's been a little harder than normal because I haven't felt exactly connected to the baby yet. In my mind I should be so bonded because I'm so overjoyed and I really recognize how blessed I am to have this little one, but I haven't allowed myself to get too attached because of all the what if's that are all so terrifying. you know, "what if the reason I haven't felt movement is because it passed away", "what if I lose it later on" things like that.
I've developed a habit of placing one hand on my stomach at night when I lie down just in case I may possibly feel something. a nudge, a kick, a roll, a flutter, but nothing has come. I can feel my heartbeat pumping blood under my hand, but that's about it.
Last night I realized all of a sudden that about half a second before I'd felt a kick. The blood zooming around under my hand sometimes nudged my hand and made me think "was that?" but I usually realized it was nothing. This though, this was a kick, nothing that hard (or in such a small area) would come from pumping blood. I instantly burst into tears of relief, of happiness, of joy. The baby is ok and I'm so silly for ever having let those doubts get in my head in the first place.
I have my first appointment with my midwife on the 22nd, she will make an appointment at the hospital for my ultrasound to find out what the baby is at that time. Hopefully we can find out before the end of the month! I'm just so excited!!
I will do better at keeping y'all updated... I just need to get on my actual computer more! lol.
Porter had surgery and has been such a trooper when it comes to keeping his gauze cast on and such. He's so cute! We went to the doctor last week and they took it off and he flipped out seeing the stitches in his thumb :( we'd be able to survive with him wearing only a band aid over it now, but we had to wrap it all back up so he wouldn't fiddle with it when I wasn't looking. We SHOULD be able to take the stitches out and keep the cast off tomorrow! I'm so excited! I should go find you some pictures of the gnarly hand he has. BAM. AND HIS THUMB IS STRAIGHT!!!!!!
Well lately about the baby I have hit the weird middle stage, when I'm starting to show, but I don't know what it is and I don't have a name for it, and I haven't felt any movement so I just feel like I'm getting bigger but I dont' feel pregnant. It's been a little harder than normal because I haven't felt exactly connected to the baby yet. In my mind I should be so bonded because I'm so overjoyed and I really recognize how blessed I am to have this little one, but I haven't allowed myself to get too attached because of all the what if's that are all so terrifying. you know, "what if the reason I haven't felt movement is because it passed away", "what if I lose it later on" things like that.
I've developed a habit of placing one hand on my stomach at night when I lie down just in case I may possibly feel something. a nudge, a kick, a roll, a flutter, but nothing has come. I can feel my heartbeat pumping blood under my hand, but that's about it.
Last night I realized all of a sudden that about half a second before I'd felt a kick. The blood zooming around under my hand sometimes nudged my hand and made me think "was that?" but I usually realized it was nothing. This though, this was a kick, nothing that hard (or in such a small area) would come from pumping blood. I instantly burst into tears of relief, of happiness, of joy. The baby is ok and I'm so silly for ever having let those doubts get in my head in the first place.
I have my first appointment with my midwife on the 22nd, she will make an appointment at the hospital for my ultrasound to find out what the baby is at that time. Hopefully we can find out before the end of the month! I'm just so excited!!
I will do better at keeping y'all updated... I just need to get on my actual computer more! lol.
Thursday, January 17, 2013
Mother of all catch ups!
breathe in, breathe out. I haven't written for a while!
It's weird. as I've left the blog'o sphere I somehow thought maybe the whole thing would pause with me. Am I that self centered that I thought people's lives were going to stop being awesome and good enough to write about? no not really, I just kinda slowly forgot about this place.
Well as a quick catch up.
We moved to the Salt Lake Valley, Drew got a new Job, we moved from a house to an apartment I don't love... and we're having a baby in july which I'm so so so blessed and happy about.
I'm overwhelmed by the love and support we've received with all of these changes. I was thinking about not making a big announcement about the baby but drew convinced me that there were people out there who wanted to celebrate with me. I have people very close to me that have been trying much harder for much longer to have a baby of their own, and I didn't want it to seem like I was being insensitive to them. I could not believe what happened when I wrote that sentence on facebook. Holy cow. Over 105 likes and over 36 comments of people virtually hugging me. It's so amazing to feel so loved. I really appreciate it! Now let's just get this little one here safely!
The move has been overwhelming, but mostly really good! Drew is doing great in his job, and it's a STEADY INCOME! talk about blessed! It's been hard for me to be with porter 24/7 with little help during the week. Add that to january blues and I've been a little down but that'll absolutely get better as it gets warmer!
Porter is cute as ever, but the cuter he gets, the more of a stinker he becomes. He's realized he has some control over his life and he likes to assert it any way possible. He's learned how to Open doors and he can reach all the light switches so bedtime has been a challenge. He is getting surgery on the 31st of this month on his hand because He has trigger finger :( poor kid! The doctor actually said that it's possible he may have been born with it and we didn't notice. I hope he hasn't gone that long!
Well. Laundry calls, but we're grateful to everyone. Seriously. Also sometime in feb, drew will be gone for 2 weeks. if you live nearby I'll be dying for visitors!! Just so you know!
It's weird. as I've left the blog'o sphere I somehow thought maybe the whole thing would pause with me. Am I that self centered that I thought people's lives were going to stop being awesome and good enough to write about? no not really, I just kinda slowly forgot about this place.
Well as a quick catch up.
We moved to the Salt Lake Valley, Drew got a new Job, we moved from a house to an apartment I don't love... and we're having a baby in july which I'm so so so blessed and happy about.
I'm overwhelmed by the love and support we've received with all of these changes. I was thinking about not making a big announcement about the baby but drew convinced me that there were people out there who wanted to celebrate with me. I have people very close to me that have been trying much harder for much longer to have a baby of their own, and I didn't want it to seem like I was being insensitive to them. I could not believe what happened when I wrote that sentence on facebook. Holy cow. Over 105 likes and over 36 comments of people virtually hugging me. It's so amazing to feel so loved. I really appreciate it! Now let's just get this little one here safely!
The move has been overwhelming, but mostly really good! Drew is doing great in his job, and it's a STEADY INCOME! talk about blessed! It's been hard for me to be with porter 24/7 with little help during the week. Add that to january blues and I've been a little down but that'll absolutely get better as it gets warmer!
Porter is cute as ever, but the cuter he gets, the more of a stinker he becomes. He's realized he has some control over his life and he likes to assert it any way possible. He's learned how to Open doors and he can reach all the light switches so bedtime has been a challenge. He is getting surgery on the 31st of this month on his hand because He has trigger finger :( poor kid! The doctor actually said that it's possible he may have been born with it and we didn't notice. I hope he hasn't gone that long!
Well. Laundry calls, but we're grateful to everyone. Seriously. Also sometime in feb, drew will be gone for 2 weeks. if you live nearby I'll be dying for visitors!! Just so you know!
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